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Tuesday, June 01, 2010
[Now Listening to: Kare Uta][by: the GazettE]
[mood: resting...]
Yo! It's been a while since I updated this blog of mine. Really, masyado talaga akong tamad when it comes to things like this. Dati naman, hindi ako ganito. Lalo na nung high school. Basta may maganda o nakakainis na pangyayari sa akin, nilalagay ko rito sa blog kong ito. Ngayon, wala na. Kung kelan naman may internet na kami sa bahay, tsaka naman ako tinamad mag-update ng blog ko.
Anyways...
I just had my OJT (on-the-job training) as my pre-requisite for my incoming fourth year stuff. At first, me and my friends were having difficulties last year as to where we will apply for our OJT. Medyo na-turn off kami sa isang company dahil sa almost kalahati yata ng Mass Communication population ay puro doon nag-apply. Kaya medyo nawalan kami ng gana. Baka makita pa namin iyong mga kinaiinisan namin. Ay day! Super impiyerno to the max na naman iyon!
*ehem*
Tapos naalala ni Manga (my lover's codename) na bakit hindi na lang kami mag-apply sa company ng professor namin sa Drama. Pumayag naman si Ate (anak namin ni Manga.. >///<)
And thus doon nabuo ang plano sa pagpunta sa company ni Sir Drama.
Ayun, matapos namin magpunta sa lugar na iyon ng D.Tuazon, matapos ang brief interview ng mga heads...
Natanggap rin kami.
We started working there last April 8. And I never thought that I would be really enjoying my OJT there kahit na daig pa ang init sa kuta ni Pareng Luci at pugon sa bakery.
The Atmosphere:
The atmosphere were pretty good. Friendly ang lahat ng tao. The Heads and especially our Creative Director which is our Drama Professor. Maliit nga ang space ngunit masaya pa rin. May mga oras nga lang noon ay grabe sa init dahil sa panahong galit na galit si Pareng Araw. Maraming mga students na doon piniling mag-OJT. Mostly, galing sa university kung saan ako nag-aaral. Pero kahit na ganoon. Ewan ko ba, may mga ilan talagang tao na darating sa buhay mo para pasakitin ang lintik mong ulo.
Napunta kaming tatlo sa Events Department. At nung pumasok kami doon, iyon na yata ang masasabi kong hulog ng langit para sa aming tatlo. Who would've known that we'll be given the chance to handle a very grandiose event? Yes, you heard it right! Kaming tatlo kasi ang unang OJTs na napunta under Events Department at nung time na iyon ay may inaasikaso silang pinakamalaking event para sa taong ito. Ano iyon? Pansamantala, sekreto muna. Siyempre, bawal sabihin dahil mawawala na ang surprise kapag nalaman ninyo. Since doon na kami magtatrabaho simula ngayon, baka tanggalin kami kapag sinabi ko. Or worse, makasuhan pa. *shivers*
Anyways, ayun nga. Kami man ang maghahandle non, siyempre, iyong Head namin sa Events ang pinakamain head. Pero since kami ang nauna, sabi ni Sir C.D, kami na raw magha-handle non forever. Siyempre, shock ang lola mo. Unexpected kasi iyon. XD
So ayun.
Meetings and stuff:
Sa laki ng event namin na iyon, siyempre, kasama na roon ang may mga meeting meeting echos para sa mga venues, sponsors, beneficiaries and stuff. Hindi ko rin inakala na makakapunta ako sa isang meeting at mararanasan ko kung ano ang madalas na nangyayari sa mga ganoong klase ng meeting. I am really thankful for I was given the chance to attend and see how the 'masters' work their way to get what they aim to have. And all in all, marami akong natutunan...
Stress and the shits:
Ang pinakakinalaban namin, STRESS. Susme, lalo na iyong magkakasunod na linggo na wala kaming ginawa kung hindi mag-isip ng concept at mag-brainstorm. Ilang beses kayang natuyot ang utak ko? Hindi ko alam. Basta ang natandaan ko lang, halos hindi na ako natutulog at nagpapahinga dahil minsan, paghiga ko ng kama, pagpikit ko, parang ilang minuto lang ang itutulog ko. Mamaya, gigising na naman ako at maghahanda sa pagpasok ko. Nakakaloka. Pero all in all, masaya. Ito na rin yata ang trabaho na lagi akong may sleepover. XD
Actually, hindi na ako makapaghintay na makapag-trabaho ulit. Mas iyon na yata ang tinitingnan ko kaysa sa pagpasok sa school. In a way kasi, pakiramdam ko ay malapit ko nang makamit iyong ilan sa mga plano ko sa buhay. Bukod pa diyan, marami akong experience na makukuha sa pagtatrabaho ko sa field na ito.
Pero, ang balak ko, mga ilang taon lang ako magtatrabaho sa company na ito. Mas gusto ko talaga i-pursue ang matagal ko nang pangarap sa sarili ko. At iyon ay ang maging isang writer. Kaya next year, kailangan ko na talagang pumasa sa screening test na iyon ng isang publishing company para makaattend na ako ng seminar nilang iyon! RAWR!
(this picture is taken by Cali Ynoviel, do not steal)
*the avatar/photo was taken by Cali Ynoviel, DO NOT STEAL
Labels: events, photography, return, thoughts, vacation, work
"Loveless" posted on; 2:14 PM
Wednesday, January 06, 2010
[Now Listening to: As Ever/Still ][by: A.N.JELL ]
[mood: doing my best to smile]
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
Woohoo!!!
At last! 2010 has finally come!
Oh my, now would you look at that? After all the things that happened for the last years, I survived! And I hope you guys did too! Hahahaha! XD
And kahit late na at least bumati naman ako, hindi ba?
It's been a long time since I updated. Eh kasi wala akong nagawang avatar kaya tinatamad akong mag-post eh. (Sabay ganon?) I actually tried to make this avatar that I had right now. Hmm. Wala lang. Napaghahalatang ginawa lang out of boredomness. XD
Anyways, so here I am. Welcoming the year with this post of mine. Para naman kahit paano maging updated naman ang blog kong ito. :D At sana, hindi siya maging hiatus again because of my school schedules. Gosh. Pwede ko bang sabihin na ang hirap maging third year Mass Comm student? Why?
Many reasons. But I'll cite few of them. This is my opinion only, okay? I don't state for the whole community. So spare me. XD
1. More and more activities - dahil sa third year ka na, siyempre marami ka nang gagawin na mga activities in relation to the course you took. Sa lahat naman eh. Di ba? As for me, in a way I'm grateful to these activities kasi unti-unti na akong natuto sa mga dapat gawin at dapat ginagawa sa field. Kumbaga, I'm starting to apply what I've learned in those long hours of salivating lectures and drooling tones of those old age professors. I was just exaggerating, I know. Kaya lang, sa ganitong siste, minsan, kahit gustuhin mo mang gandahan ang presentation mo, dahil sa sunud-sunod ang mga pinapagawa ng mga professors na akala mo eh hindi nagdaan sa pagkabata at sa paggimik at pagbabarkada, daig pa nila ang mga wrestlers na nag-tag team match kung magpabigay ng kaliwa't-kanang assignments at kung anu-anong activities, hindi mo minsan talaga maiiwasan na mag-cram, mag-rush at worst, i-mema ang gawa mo. In short, total crappy mema work.
Pero kahit sabihin mong crappy ang work, di ba, gagastos ka pa rin? dito papasok ang susunod...
2. Less and less of the term "your-own" budget and greens in the house - At dahil sa third year ka na, lahat ay mag-uumpisang tumaas. Gastusin mo sa school, hours na ilalagi mo sa lugar ng kung saan-saan for the activities, pag-uwi mo ng gabi, dami ng sleepovers at kung anu-ano pa. Pero isa lang ang hindi tumataas kahit na ba third year ka na.
Ang baon mo.
Pati nga ang presyon ng mga magulang mo tumataas kapag nalalamang may babayaran ka na naman sa school eh. Hindi lang iyon, lagi ka pang umaalis kahit wala kang pasok sa ibang mga araw. Eh ano bang magagawa natin? Nag-aaral tayo eh? Nag-aaral ako eh? At kailangan nating mag-participate sa mga activities kung saan dapat tayong sumali kung hindi ay wala tayong straight line na makukuha sa mga cards natin, di ba?
Siyempre, sa pagtaas ng presyon, kasama na rin ang pagtaas ng paghingi mo ng pera kapag aalis ka sa mga araw na walang pasok.
Bilang college student, naranasan ko na rin ang ilang beses sabihan ng kung anu-ano ng magulang ko kapag sinabi kong aalis ako para may gawin for school. And up to now, mukhang hindi pa rin siya sanay na kailangan ko talagang umalis. Lagi niyang sinasabi na wala na kaming pera at kung anu-ano pang mga pagdududa ang sasabihin niya. Siyempre, ano bang magagawa ko? Eh di keep quiet na lang. Baka kung ano pang mangyari kapag binara mo siya na, "Palit tayo, ikaw ang mag-aral." Eh di tuluyan ko nang hindi narating ang pangarap ko? XD
Naiintindihan ko naman ang sintir ng mga magulang tungkol sa kahirapan ng walang pera. I admit, kami ngayon ay walang-wala nang pera. At hindi umuusbong ang negosyo. Hanggang ngayon nga ay iniisip ako kung paano ako mag-su-survive sa semester na ito. Kung writer lang ako na nakakapag-publish na ng mga gawa ko at kahit paano ay kumikita na, eh di solve na sana ang mga worries ko? Hindi na sila mangungunsumi sa paghingi mo ng pera kasi hindi ka hihingi sa kanila. At pwede ka nang magpunta sa mga lugar na gusto mo dahil may sarili ka na namang pera. Grabe, ang sarap talagang mangarap ano?
Kaya nga iyon na lang ang gawin mo habang nakikinig ka sa sinasabi ng magulang mo na: Mas gugustuhin ko pang mamatay kaysa mapahiya ako sa mga tao ko.
3. Dream on, dream on... - habang naka-upo ka sa loob ng isang klase at nagtuturo ang professor mo, bigla mong makikita na lalapitan ka ng professor mo at kakamayan ka, bibigyan ka ng papel na nakabilot at may tali ng ribbon. Tapos doon mo lang mapapansin na naka-toga ka pala! Abot tainga ngiti mo! Nagtatalon ka sa tuwa. Dahil sa wakas, you, finally, have graduated!!!
Sabay, bigla mong narinig ang paulit-ulit na tawag sa'yo ng prof mo na nasa tabi mo na kulang na lang ay maligo ka sa laway niya habang tinatawag ka niya para ipaliwanag ang sinasabi niya. Huh? Doon mo lang na-realize... Hala! You daydreamed!
Hindi ko maiwasan ang huwag maging ganito minsan, well hindi kasama iyong may laway effect ah? Tindi non. XD Hindi lang daydream actually, but napansin ko na ilan sa mga third years, isa na ako doon, ay nag-uumpisa nang ma-bored sa mga profs na walang ginawa kundi mag-lecture ng mag-lecture ng minsan ay mga obvious naman na itinuturo.
Don't get me wrong. Hindi po ako bitter. Kaya lang, hindi ba't parang iikot lang naman ang iikot ang topic kapag ganon? If you know already the discussed topic, pakiramdam ko'y pwede na tayong mag-jump sa susunod.
Pero kunsabagay, isa rin kasi ako sa mga hindi nakikinig sa klase. XD
I find it hard to focus my attention on the topics or lectures that involves so much talking and I have no idea of what are they talking about. Depende na rin kung interesado ako sa topic na idi-discuss or what. Napansin ko na nga rin na hindi na ako masyadong nag-te-take down ng notes at basta na lang nakikinig. Actually, wala nga akong separate fillers/notebooks for my subjects this sem. Isang maliit na notebook lang na may kung anu-ano ang isinusulat ko kapag magtuturo na ang mga profs. Pero kudos naman sa mga profs na nakakakuha ng attention ko. They never fail to catch my attention when they teach. And maybe because they do know what they're teaching us. Especially, if what they're teaching us, is their passion to begin with.
I wonder if their parents had this kind of passion too when they're raising this great people to adulthood? Just got curious. XD
4. Eh kasi...magulang. - Now, let's talk about parents na kahit kailan ata ay hindi matatanggap na, this IS the generation. Na kahit anong paliwanag mo ay mukhang hindi ka talaga nila makukuha ang punto mo o kaya naman hindi ka pa rin titigilan sa sermon nila at kung anu-ano pa. If you guys don't have this kind of parents, then you're lucky. To those who don't, we're still lucky too. Why? Kasi natututo tayong ipaglaban kung ano ang gusto nating ipakita sa kanila. That we can stand on our own two litte growing feet. And we're reaching that stage that's called, Young Adulthood
As for me, titingnan ko na lang sa bright side ang lahat tungkol sa kanila. Kahit na ba hindi ko na alam ang dapat kong gawin para maipakita lang sa kanila na naiintindihan ko naman sila, intindihin pa rin. Ang gulo no? Ganyan talaga. Kahit ako, hanggang ngayon naguguluhan eh. Naiipit pa rin at nahihirapan, pero iniisip ata nila na hindi ako nahihirapan. Na sila lang talaga lahat ang gumagawa ng kung anu-ano para makapag-ano ng ano. Ano iyon? Kayo na bahalang mag-decipher.
I agree, ang hirap talagang magpalaki ng magulang. Iyong no matter how hard you explain, no effect pa rin. O di ba nakakaloka?! Bakit ko siya isinali sa reasons ko? Eh kasi blog ko ito at isa ito sa mga reasons ko. Nahihirapan ako kasi minsan, habang nasa school, hindi ko alam kung paano ako magkakaroon ng pera para hindi na ma-high blood sa akin ng Mama ko kapag humihingi ako ng pera na ang iniisip niya ay ipinanggagastos ko lang sa wala. Eh ganon talaga eh. Eh di hayaan siyang mag-isip ng ganon. Nakakapagod din naman kasi ang paulit-ulit na magpaliwanag sa taong alam mong hindi naman nakikinig talaga sa'yo. Di ba?
Pero kahit na magkaganon, dapat pa ring harapin ang bagong taon ng may ngiti sa aking mga labi. Mahirap talaga ang buhay. Unfair at kung anu-ano pa. But that what makes it interesting, right? And as long as there are those who are making you happy and very much alive and loving you with all of their hearts, aren't you smile for their efforts and sweetness? Kaya nga dapat lagi din tayong naka-smile for them to uplift their spirits.
At sa bagong taon na ito, gusto kong punan ang buong taon ng puro mga masasayang ngiti kalakip na doon ang mga masasayang alaala na pwede kong itago at alagaan sa aking puso. ^_^
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
Labels: celebration, events, return, thoughts, vacation
"Loveless" posted on; 10:06 PM
Saturday, December 05, 2009
[Now Listening to: Eternal Snow][by:Changing My Life]
[mood: tired]
Wouldn't be so great? To start a week with pure smiles. With a carefree you jumping and skipping in this flowery field with the cool spring air touching your smooth face?
I hope to have that kind of week before. Because this first week is very special to me. But dammit, every day of December was really have to be ruined by this fucking crisis and this fucking situation here in my dramatic-family.
And day by day, I get more and more emotionally tired of this never-ending soap opera. Why wouldn't just all of this end?!?!?! Do I really need to suffer this much for what I did years ago? So yeah, I was the one who told my dad that he should just let my mom free. But I only did that because I don't want the both of them get hurt anymore. Damn it! I love them both! But he couldn't see it. Up to now, I feel I'm still responsible when everyone tells me shouldn't be.
And this was all started when I went to my mom's province with my dad and my little brother. Dad keeps on being sarcastic and I'm really having a hard time to cope with it while I was there beside him. For one, half of my heart was really happy to see him because I missed him a lot. While the other one was still hurting by the fact that he still can't move on. And I'm dealing with things with him when in the first place, I shouldn't be the one dealing with everything.
It's their battle. But I kept on being in the middle of their boxing fight. If it weren't for my lover, I wouldn't be able to look forward each day if my lover wasn't there to make me smile, laugh and forget those things that I'm experiencing right now.
Right now, it's confusing me. I don't want to take sides. I don't want for others to think that I'm on the others' side. I don't know what to do with it anymore. Sometimes, all I want is just to be with my lover and never return to this place again. We'll go to some place that we can be us and we can be happy. But doing that right now would cause chaos in our lives. As for now, we just have to hang onto each other and strengthen our bonds and make our dream come true. And that is, our upcoming future with our plans together.
Mom had just talked to me, she told me things about the separation of their properties between hers and dad. And she was asking me if I'm ready to testify to the court to answer some questions in regards to their separation and the support and some other stuffs that are related to it. If I want to testify, she'll get an attorney so that the could get the properties and equally separate it. Because the reason why she'll hire an attorney is for taking the rights of me and my little brother in those properties, for us to use. She said that I should think it over. If ever I wouldn't want to testify to the court, she'll respect it. But she'll never let my dad take the house in Laguna, neither some of the properties because it's for me and my little brother, according to her.
I don't know what should I do in this matter. And as we speak, I keep on thinking about it. I don't want my dad to get hurt. But my mom fights for our welfare. Mom wants to get her surname again because she plans to work in abroad. I know she thinks about us. Our welfare. I know, that dad thinks about us too. But this kind of thing is too big for me. What should I do?
All I want is to be with my lover. I want to be wrapped in my lover's arms, to feel my lover's lips. And the best thing for me to do to help me calm down is to think of my lover. And it never fails to do its spell on me. To make me smile whenever I see my lover in my mind.
You know, even I had this tiring week, I'm still looking forward to each days. Especially now, today's is Vylri's birthday. He's 1 year-old! I can't wait to have some adventures with him, later. My friends and I (together with my lover) will be celebrating Vylri's birthday.
And then, tomorrow, it will be my special day. And I'm very much looking forward to it.
Because it's my birthday. We're very much looking forward to our plans that day. With me and GlammatZ. It's gonna be a long but enjoyable day. I know. I believe it will be. Because my friends and my lover (most especially) will be there, celebrating with me. ^_^
So, I won't give up.
I won't...
=Chiharu=
*photo/avatar made by me. photography by Cali Ynoviel. Don't steal*
Labels: birthday, celebration, events, rants, thoughts
"Loveless" posted on; 1:26 AM
Saturday, October 24, 2009
[Now listening to: Before I Decay ][by: the GazettE]
[mood: mean]
Yo! Hizashiburi desu! Hahaha! You thought my blog was on hiatus or have been dropped off completely by the lousy blog mistress, am I right?!?!
Well, news for you guys, you were right but wrong! Bwahahahaha! Now, the evil mistress is back to bum you away once again with different posts on different stuffs that's going in and out of my world. Hahaha! As if there's someone who's interested, right? Oh well... XD
Moving on, my writing has been stopped for a while but now I'm back, my 2 laptops went down and as of the moment, I've been writing my stories manually. Yep, you got that right. With the traditional, same old pen and paper routine. I've been writing a story that could range to 4 to 5 chapters depending on my mood to write or if I'm able to do it despite my tough schedule. I know, it's my Semestral break, but I can't help it if I still got things to do. Good thing it's not school stuff for now. And I still somehow have my time.
Things to Do:
* Need to find a work (a part-time actually)
* Need to finish editing pictures
* Need to finish posting those pictures XD
* Need to finish writing my story
* Need to start my band-type story
* Need to finish my accessory
Goodness! I have so many things to do! I left them hanging the last time due to my school works and all and now I'm back to face it head on! Hahaha!
I miss writing, I hope nothing has changed in the way that I write, or if there's a change, I hope it's in a good way, not the other way around....
And now, for a little flashback of what happened to me these past few years... or days or....just past. XD
WORK
Oh yeah, due to some events that just had happened recently (I so love what happened, the ramblings, the fight, and all! Hahahaha! I'm so mean) , I chose to find a part-time job as I study, in order for me to earn some few bucks and save a little for my plans in life as I graduate from college and from my hell-of-a-life. I'm sick and tired of the shits and the freaking ramblings of the drama queen so I decided that I should find a work that could save her few money and let me do what I want for good.
I'm here once again in her custody because of what happened, I got a flu and when my best friend brought me in her house, when she arrive, gosh, I never thought that the day would come that I'll be ashamed not for myself but for my friend who've seen what she's like when she scolds me or when the two of us argue. That triggered me to finally stood my ground. I've had it! I've had enough of it! I stood up even I was sick that night and we argued, I indeed yelled at her, in front of my friend.
I agree with you, it was a bad thing to do, if you'll gonna say that. But really, it's not me who started it! She was the one who had just slammed the door open and ordered for me to stay at her place forever considering the fact that I was sick (actually, I was sick for 2 days, she didn't know, I slept with my friend's house, telling that we got some homework to finish coz I can't go home that night because I was, sick) that night and there's a person beside me (my friend who helped me get home) who's sleeping. Or at least, pretending to.
I don't want to stay here in this place where she's there too, but I guess for now, I have no choice, since she said that she can't shoulder the finance in the place where I'm staying, and my uncle and cousin had agreed of the separation, I'm somehow forced to stay here, but not really since I have a back-up plan: to stay at my friend's apartment and share the half of the rent in the place. But I have to keep it a secret to her and save my money. For now, I'll agree to her plans and wants, just for a little while, since my graduation would be a year and a half away from my grasps, but my decision of finding a work is still as hard as a rock. In order for me to prepare if I decided to move out of this place soon, I need to find a work that could help me shoulder my at least half of my expenses and could fulfill my needs and wants.
Right now, I'm looking for a possible job that I could fulfill the requirements they need for a person like me. Well, it's not only me. My friend and I were both gonna find work. You know, financial needs. It's a sad thing not to have money, really. Tsk...
PHOTOGRAPHY
Kyaaa!!!
Last 16th I just had my very first photoshoot with my college barkda, "GlammatZ" for our plates in our Photo class. The topic was "Japanese Fashion."
It was not a very good day to begin with but it was fun since it was my and Vylri's first time taking portrait photos outside and taking pictures of my friends as my models. Actually, all of us should be models including me, but when it was about to be my turn, I fell dizzy and it was then we all realized that I had a flu. So the next day, one of my barkada who didn't went in the said shoot posed in my stead. (while I was dozing my ass off away in our university clinic.) Since others had forgotten their clothes/costumes for the shoot, I brought some pairs from my dusty wardrobe for them to use. XD
Right now, we're currently planning for our real project as a group. Before this year ends, we plan to make it happen. I want to make a portfolio of our group, in order to preserve those precious memories. Also, I want everyone of them to have a portfolio that they could use when they apply to work as a model or a photographer or something like that. I plan to make one myself too, for it could be useful when someday I'll take this hobby of mine into another level.
I'll be posting the pictures of our photoshoot soon. So kindly wait for my updates on my dA photography account.
I'll be happy if you leave constructive comments in regards to my photos, thank you very much. ^_^
And this is it for my report. 'Til next time unknown entities. Ja ne.
>end transmission<
Labels: photography, rants, return, thoughts, work
"Loveless" posted on; 2:24 PM
Sunday, July 12, 2009
[Now listening to: Shin Ai][by: Nana Mizuki]
[mood: sick]
yep! You got it right! XD I'm currently having a fever for almost four days now. And by any chance, this damn fever won't go away.
Eh di ba may A(H1N1) churva? In our school, we have this small gadget that checks your temperature, if you passed it, they'll stamped you with something like "Passed in Temperature Scan...blah blah..." mukha ka tuloy parang baboy na dumaan sa masusing pagsisisayasat kung di ba iyon double dead or nag-suicide.
Hehehe!
Anyways, it's been a month since I posted on my blog. Grabe sobrang hectic sa school! Napaghahalataang junior na aketch! Huwaaah!!!!
Just recently, katatapos lang ng presentation namin for Drama100. Musical ang genre na napili for our group, ako at ang collab ko ang gumawa ng script. It's like a parody for the famous KDrama, BOF
Pagdating sa presentation, medyo nagkagulu-gulo na. Still, I can say that it went fine. Bawi na lang ulit next time. ^_^
At last, nakakapagsulat na ulit ako ng stories. But I won't be posting them for a while. I'll be asking some permissions since I already gave those stories to someone. Kung papayag sila, I might post it here. Nevertheless, I'll try to post some stories here na hindi ko pa naipopost. Hehehehe! XD
Labels: events, rants, thoughts
"Loveless" posted on; 2:36 PM
Thursday, June 11, 2009
[Now listening to: Insomnia][by: Wheesung]
[mood: deranged]
Busy streets in the middle of the day.
Suot ang kanyang favorite shades and a rugged outfit, tahimik lang niyang pinapanood ang paroo't parito ng mga taong alam niya kung saan ang punta. Sa mga trabaho nila.
Siya rin dapat ay nagtatrabaho na, pero binigyan niya ng panahon ang sarili para makalabas sa magulo at nakakapagod niyang mundo. He gave himself a break.
Sumandal siya sa steel railing ng isang kilalang establishment at inilagay ang earphones sa kanyang tainga.
It was a melody he composed for almost a week now. At hanggang ngayon, wala pa rin siyang maisip na lyrics na pwedeng mailagay doon.
And for the first time, nangyari iyon sa kanya. That's the reason why he decided to go outside his condominium. To freshen up his mind.
He closed his eyes and let the booming sound coming from his earphones succumb him completely. Humming softly, tila isang pinto ang biglang lumitaw sa kanyang mundo. As he opened it inside his mind, letters started to appear one by one. Slowly forming up words. And as words were slowly being produced, scenes started to pop out like a movie playing inside his brain... Resulting into a story fitting into the melody he was listening to.
In whispers, he sang the lyrics that formed in his mind...
Underneath those petals was your empty soul...
With bare hands,I held your sharp thorns
Yelling in silent pain, I devour your color
Dig deeper my love...
Grasp for.... my devil rose
Matapos ang sabayan ang pinakikinggan, binuksan niya ang kanyang mga mata. He smirked as he raised his shades to greet the shining sun.
Not bad... wika niya sa sarili.
He stood up and placed his hand inside his jean-pockets. Ibinaba na rin niya ang earphones sa kanyang balikat nang magsimula siyang maglakad. He has to go back inside his condo bago niya makalimutan ang kinanta niya...
Sabi na nga ba, all he needed was a little bit of fresh air...
>end<
*sigh of relief* my gulay. Natapos din i-type ang isang ito. What is this? This is my introduction for my upcoming story. Let's just say that my first taglish story na yaoi? Kayanin ko kaya? Bwahahahaha! Wuuu!!! XD
I can't wait to start this project. Kaunti na lang mauumpisahan ko na rin siya.
Oh please don't steal the line. I made that. Don't be bad. Kakagatin ko kayo.
O sige na, I have to sleep. I'll try to update next time.. XD
Labels: original, stories, yaoi
"Loveless" posted on; 11:48 PM
Sunday, May 24, 2009
[Now Listening to: Glamorous Sky (English Version)][by: Hyde]
[mood: bored]
Holding my pen, I played it with my fingers. Thinking of what to write next, my demented brain brought up the most interesting idea...
"What if I write a letter for myself?"
You got that write! Err... I mean right! Haha!
And because I'm so bored to think, I've decided to post the letter in a mix of Tagalog and English or what language that suits my mood right now. Hahaha!
*cough cough*
So, here it goes!
Dear mE,
Hello.
How are you? Oh wait, do I really have to ask that? I know that you're fine and still struggling to the flowing substance called life...
Maraming nangyari sa iyo nitong mga nakaraang taon and up to now, I'm very proud that you're still clinging on.
You always say that whenever you make some changes in your hair, there's a reason as to why you want to do it..
Sa buwan pa lang na ito, maraming kaganapan ang nangyari sa iyo. Nandiyan ang another issue ng parents mo for their separation, people leaving, and right now, sinusubukan mong mag-adjust sa loob ng apartment niyo na kung saan ang kapatid mo, at ang mama mo ay kasalukuyang nakatira kasama mo (together with your 2 tito, 2 maids, and your 2 pinsans na kung saan iyong isa ay natutulog sa umaga due to her shift in the cca).
Mainit ba sa bago mong kwarto mo ngayon? I know, your privacy was once again, shaved off by your mother. Hindi na ikaw ang gumagamit ng kama mo kundi sila na ng kapatid mo at ikaw ay kasama ng mga kasambahay mo sa kabilang kwarto. Sa malaking kwarto na kahit naman malaki ay parang dinaig pa ang impiyerno sa init.
Kahit mahirap, pilitin na lang tiisin. Kapag hindi na kaya, tiisin pa rin. In a way, naging maganda rin ang naidulot ng pagtira nila diyan, despite sa ingay ng apartment dahil sa kapatid mong pasaway. Kasi may mga gamit na kayo ngayon na wala dati! In short, nagmukha na nga siyang tirahan ng mga tao at hindi ng mga nagpapanggap lang na tao.
I just heard recently that something happened to you. I know that it hurts a lot. Pero dapat matuto kang iwan ang mga bagay na nangyari na. I mean come on! Huwag kang selfish. Hindi lang ikaw ang nasasaktan kapag umiiyak ka. Don't think of those people who already left. Think of those who stayed beside you. After all, sila naman talaga ang importante dahil hindi ka nila iniwan nung mga panahon wala kang mapagsabihan ng nararamdaman... You have to let go of them for you to be free na rin. I know you can do that. Ikaw pa. Huwag kang mag-alala dahil hindi ka na naman nag-iisa sa paglalakad mo. Andiyan na
Oh, how was the vacation? Masaya akong malaman na sobrang nag-enjoy kasama ang napakahalagang tao sa buhay mo. Walang araw na hindi ka nakangiti at tumatawa. And I'm very much happy that you enjoyed every single moment with that person. A glimpse of the future of the both of you. I know, it will come true. Just continue to believe in it, eventually, that day will come where you can be very happy. Living with your other half...
Have you even noticed the changes in you? Unti-unti, your opening up your world... And I'm very thankful that you met your other half. Your future. Mas naging malinaw ang nakikita mong future ngayon kumpara noon. Dati, wala kang pakialam. Daig mo pa ang zombie sa sobrang monotonous every day, pero ngayon, you look forward every day with a smile on your face. Naks! Iba talaga ang nagagawa kapag tinamaan 'no?
Continue to be happy with your future, dear. And be yourself. At last, you have given the chance to be feel this extreme happiness you never thought you'll be having in your life... Patuloy mong alagaan at pasiyahin ang taong mahal mo. Dahil alam kong iyon din ang kaligayahan mo. To love and be loved is the most extreme happiness of all.
Alam ko, unti-unti ka na rin nakaka-recover sa lahat-lahat. Isa pa, malapit na ang pasukan. You should be happy. Dahil magkaka-pera ka na ulit! At makikita mo na
You've changed a lot... and I'm very happy in that changes...
'Til next letter ulit. I've ran out of what to say to you.
P.S. How's your writing going by the way? Sana makapag-sulat ka na ulit. Whatever that's troubling you, kung meron man, I hope you overcome it.
Until then,
Self.
"Loveless" posted on; 8:11 PM
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