Bursted feelings

Hmmmm......... Where do I start? Ah! It's like this...

This day is the most worst day for me? You know why? Because I wasn't allowed to go to Baguio with my friends and classmates. I wasn't allowed to go to were PRISAAP will be held!!! *cries*

I was so pissed earlier...when I couldn't take it any longer, I cried. I really, really cried. Hard. Luckily, our subject is over that morning when I bursted to tears. But before that, I went to the guidance office cause I don't like my friends and classmates to see me cry. I thought they'll just allow me to cry there and understand me. But I was wrong.
They said that I really didn't understand my parents, because I am mad at them. And they want to talk to my parents to end this conversation for good. For they all they receive from me is just about the negative things about my parents.

WTF?! O_o

I'm not mad at my parents! I was just so disappointed and sad for I wasn't allowed to go to Baguio! They think I'm mad because the way I speak but I'm not! And I understand them! It's just that my feelings were all mixed up cause I'm expecting that they'll allow me to go there! I thought they understand my side!!!! I was so pissed!!! So, when I said that I'll come back later cause I'm deciding whether I'll give my mom's phone # or not. But really, I don't want to give it to them. I don't want them to solve my problem. I just want someone to listen to my rants and pain today. Not with the past events for Hell's sake! They didn't understand me!!!!!

When I went to our room. I've been thinking whether I'll give the number of my mom or not. And then, I just found myself pouring my pain at my friends. And they LISTENED to me!! And I saw my crush (who is also my friend) LISTENING to me!!!

Honestly, I didn't imagine that they'll listen to me 'cause you see I don't tell them my problem or what I feel towards something 'cause I thought that they won't listen to me. But wow! I felt someone was beside and there doing their best to make me stop from crying. My friends are there! I was so happy 'cause they're listening to me. And it made me feel fine afterwards. But still I was depressed because my parents didn't allow me to go with them. But as long as some of my friends are here. Maybe I'll live.