...UNUSUAL....

You know what? I don't like them..... I hate them....

Why? Because, all they can think about are theirselves! It's always this... always that.... WHAT THE---- Are you insane?!

I am not thinking straight at times, I know... I don't know what the hell I'm talking about, I know... But damn! I want to be free!!! Free to decide things on my own!!!!

CRAP!!!!

You just can't tell me what to do with my life forever!!! I have my own life!!! I understand you have problems that's bigger than I have that's why I'm not telling mine to you. 'Cause I don't like to give you another burden, but please, don't blame me!! You're not the only one who's having problems! Don't pour it out on me, I mean, your anger because of many bills and a lot more. I want to do the things that I want!!!!!

It's too frustrating!!!

I'm trying the best I can to understand you! I always feel the tension between us when we see each other! It's like you're mad at me but I don't know the reason why?! I love you! Don't you see that?! I'm here for you! Whenever he's not around, I'm trying my best to make you smile, to the point that I can't sleep because I'm worried about you! He even told me when he called yesterday to give my best to cheer you up because you have so many things in your mind. Even do the thing that I really can't do to you... What did I get? A cold appreciation from you. I really tried my best! And still I'm trying, trying to make you smile! Trying to ease the damn tension that's building around us! I want to see you smile again.... Free from worries... Free from damn payments... Free from those people who want to hurt you and him...

But what can I do, if you're not opening your heart to do that? WHAT?!

I don't know if this'll reach you, but I know, one day, you'll be able to read this.... But WHEN??